“More Than Enough”

Today I went to my chiropractor. My back has been in intense pain for the past 4 days. I got a massage on Tuesday, which was wonderful, & helped, but, by today I was quite desperate. Fortunately, I was able to get an appointment. I got “the full treatment, please,” which entailed some sort of “shock job” on my back, then over to the “electronic jabber” thingy, next, the “adjustment,” & on to the best part– the roller massage table!” Yes, indeed, I would say that was the “Full Treatment.” While I was lying there, however, my 9 year old daughter, who will not allow me out of her sight, was sitting there asking me, “How much longer, Mom?,” and my 12 yr. old son & dog were waiting in the car. So as I lay there, trying to relax & allow the treatments to better serve me, I had all of these distractions going through my head. And then I remembered what a beautiful Benedictine nun had said to me once, “Susan, there’s more than enough time; there’s more than enough of everything.” Even as I think @ this now, I find myself tearing up. There IS enough; I AM enough, I GIVE enough, I SUFFER enough, I CELEBRATE  enough, & yet, somehow, it never seems to be “enough.” So, then, what is “enough?” Therein lies the $64,000 question. I think that we get to decide what’s enough, & dig our heels into our own truth, no one else’s. So, after my appt., everyone was fine, & I thought, “well what if everyone else wasn’t fine?” Yes, I would have probably reacted in “Mother Mode,” trying to make everyone “happy, “so as to cause no distress to anyone other than myself, of course. Well, as I said before, everyone was fine, except for hungry, which I was, too, so that worked out fine, as my husband was working late. The kids, dog, & I went to “Taco Bell” drive-thru, with my BIG coupon book (A Holiday promotion I fell for, which has actually proven to be a “good deal.”)  We got our food & went to the beach park. We sat there, with our beautiful ocean view, eating our cheap food, &, you know, that was “MORE than enough.” As I watched the fisherman, jet-skiers, scuba boats, etc., I thought to myself, “well, if this isn’t enough, then I don’t know what is.” Afterward we walked the beach, collecting shells & rocks, gazing out to the sea, gathering our own “treasures” & just being together. I found my thoughts drifting…..thinking about my life. I LOVE where I live… love the weather, the beauty, the lifestyle, the opportunities…… But, I also felt a bit of a shift. Am I really enjoying this paradise fully? I’m not what one would call a nature-y type girl, i.e. hikes, camping, water sports, roughing it, etc., but I DO love nature & it’s unending beauty. I enjoy the views, the restaurants on the water, the flowy sundresses, the openness & so much more. But I’ve found myself thinking about all of the more adventures that are here for me, be it yoga on the beach, walking my dog on the beach, collecting shells, rocks, & sea glass with my kids, soaking in the glorious, salty ocean water! It wasn’t at all a negative thought about what I already enjoy, but, rather it was an opening, an expanding to how much more I can enjoy! And, as I drove home up the hill, with my dog & “my babies” in tow, I realized, “It was enough.”…….. Aloha & Mahalo, My beauties……